New Found Joy!!!!

Hey Everybody,

•       I am Sorry for not posting in awhile, but I found a new found joy. Now I know why my son Loves that PS3 I bought him. I just went out an bought the new PS3 for myself, an it is worth every penny of it. I even done put it online, so I can meet people around the world. I done made about seven freinds in less than a week. I am going to bring them to my blog sight to see if I have something they might be interested in. I njoy playing with them too! I just want to let ya'll know what is going on over here, because I don't want everybody feel like I done forgot about them. I got to find a way to blend both addictions together, plus including my Loving Family with it. I can't turn into a vedio game junkie, because my time is needed  all around me. I love being free cause everything is at my controls! I will check in from time to time to see have anybody knew has joined my blog. I want to Thank all the people have been supportive of me along the way, without you it wouldn't be no me, so stay with me........ I just wanted to give ya'll something special, I hope you like it cause I took this picture.....

Mans Best Friend....

Hey World,

Today at work I got to thinking, luckly today was a slow one. I was thinking about how I wish I had some friends, just somebody who grew up with me. I asked myself how do you like my life right now, I told myself I wouldn't trade it in for the world. You wouldn't believe who popped on my mind at that moment, my fiance dog Ninja. I LOVE when I come home from work an he be waiting right at the door for me, ready to show me some Love. Why do I need a friend when I have a mans best friend waiting on me each an everyday, so who cares about a friend who grew up with you. Life goes on...... You might think this post is stupid, but it is real talk....

No Excuses......

I came out here with nothing besides the things I had in a box. I didn't know what to expect once the bus touched down to my destination. My mind was going crazy cause I knew that the world done changed, and where would I fit in at. I was the Man in the streets before I went away to pull my time. I could have jumped on a train or bus, but I wanted to see how the world done changed. My eyes saw so many differant changes in the world, I thought my mind was playing tricks on me. I walked around for awhile,then I decided to go visit the Family cause I knew they was waiting. I have been away too long for them to be waiting on me too much longer,so I made it my business to head in that direction. I Love them to the fullest, because they is the only reason I survived from being away from them so long. To be trueful, I almost lost my mind, but I dug down deep to the core of the Love I had for them,an I found a way to pull through it.Once I walked through the doors,the Family was waiting to show their Love to me. I looked like a giant in our house cause I have been locked away in a small box,so everything look big to me. The smiles on their faces said one thing, but their looks showed me how much stress I put them through. I knew from that moment I had to implement the changes I done made over the years I have been away. I already knew what to expect, so I made it my business to be ready for this day. I knew that lies was told, but they protected me in the process. They knew that I would have tricked my release date up if I would have known what they was really going through. I was mad when I first heard about it, but I swallowed my pride an just listen. I cried & cried, because I wasn't able to defend them. I can't go through it all at once, because I am still emotionally attached to what have took place. Stay with me an you will know the whole story of a man who lost power of the streets for a walk with the good Lord above. I can't do nothing without him being my guide!!!!! I am not the driver no more. I gave my keys to God, an he drives the best!!!!

Keeping Positive.....

Hi Everybody,

I just got off work. I told you that I bust tables for now. I just needed a start, so another job will take the risk on me. The only reason it is a risk is from my past history,but that was the old self. Today at work made me feel so good. A lady came up to me an gave me a tip for $10.00,that was the first ten dollar tip I have received. It wasn't about the money though,it was about what she said to me. She told me that she appreciated the way I treated people. I started smiling to myself cause I am kind & give respect when people disrespect me. I am glad I have changed, because I didn't have the patience to put up with foolish people. I have my smile posted on my face twentyfour-seven. I love sharing my message, so stay with me.....

Loving What I Have!!!

Hey Everybody,

I love what I have. I just got off work from a long day of busting tables. I saw that my future wife has posted my blog about my mother. She knows how much this means to me,because I love to put my stuff out there early. I am glad I had that piece saved away for you all. I be working late at times and I will not be able to post in a timely fashion. Without my future wife,I wouldn't be right here right now sharing my knowledge & life experiences with you all. I had her to put a blog out there, so visit it at akagem.blogspot.com to see her first post. Stay with me and we will go to the top, doors will keep opening for me because I am on the right path. I Thank the Lord daily for giving me a loving woman like I have right now. I cherish & love her to the fullest, because she loves me back!!!!

The Ribbon That Binds....

Hey World,

I was inspired to write this story after I went to visit my parents this morning. I saw the woman who sacrificed it all for the well being of her children. I saw her sitting in her chair with a whole lot of years of dealing with life's challenges written on her face. The smile is picture perfect. I wish she could have had a life on her own. She doesn't trip off money or material items, giving her last to make sure her lovely kids are happy & a roof over their heads. I just found a job, and it doesn't bring in much. It is enough for her to save the little bit she gets for herself. I took on all my bills,doing what I'm supposed to do. I will love to see my Mother with her hair done, new shoes and clothes. Why wouldn't I want these things for her. She is my ribbon who binded my heart together when I lost focus on life. Yes,I chose the wrong path, and I paid for my mistakes too. One thing I can say, she never left me or gave up on me. She kept praying for me to take charge back over my life, because the devil had me by the throat. I came home a changed man. Just by her seeing that I havede changed for the better and not the worst has released so many years of stress off her life. It made me feel so good inside to see & feel the vibrant side of her. I wanted ya'll to know the the woman who made me so strong when I was so weak. I am a man, but I will always be her baby at heart. I might not be a scholar or a pro athelete, but I have what it takes to change lives. I have been down roads that a whole lot of people can't dream of going, and done made it back to tell the world my story......

The Day The Earth Stood Still....

Hey World,

I would be wrong if I didn't say nothing about this day.Today will never be forgotten over here.What happened on this day is something a person will never forget,how can you?Let me say one thing.With something so tragic.I saw the world pull together as one,an I respect that a whole lot.We could have fallen apart if we had not joined as one.We are survivers of something special,plus our destiny lays in our hands,but you is the one in control.What is you going do?????

The Man in the Mirror

As I sit here thinking back on my life. I never saw the wrong I was doing to myself. I could point out everybody else mistakes though. It took some years for me to get tired of the same results. I was at my bottom, so I knew things had to change. I took a long look in the mirror, measuring myself up cause the person I saw was a stranger. I wasn't raised to live a life like that. After the tears started flowing I knew I found that little kid in me who has been hiding from a long time ago. I decided from that day forth to do things differently. It wasn't easy at all either. I was in foreign territory, but I wasn't going to result back to my old self. I am still fighting to this day. Times get so hard that the walls feel like they're closing in, but I keep moving forward. I have been blessed with so much in a short period of time that I know it was worth changing my life around for. Now the world is wide open for my taking, bringing my odds greater then before. I only had two options at first, and that was death or jail. That hand is not a winning hand at all, because who want those chances out of life. You have the pleasure to read something from a person who has been counted out to be nothing. Maybe I can change someone from taking the same path I had to take to change my life around. One thing for sure, once I learned how to love myself, now I have the ability to love others but Family comes first...

Truth and Honesty

I decided to add one more piece to the puzzle. I wondered why people lie so much? I just don't see the real reason behind it all. I understand people want to protect other people feelings, but the truth will come to the light. Then the person will be hurt that much more, knowing that they been lied to so long. I rather tell the truth and suffer the raft, it even help get over the matter at hand quickly. My son developed this lying stage, like he can't tell the truth about the smallest thing. I hope it is something he is going through, because I am not raising him to lie. Let me know what you think...

Beauty Is The Heart...

Everyday at work I hear people talking about how good a person may look. Why do people see the outside and not the heart? People pass over 10 average women to get to a model type one. Yeah, she might look good on the outside, but what about the inside. Her character alone could make her look worse then the ones you passed over to get to her. All I am trying to say is start looking at the heart and the beauty from within will turn her into your Super Model...

Fighting Demons

I wanted to say why when we get pissed off at something that affects us. We tend to take it out on the people who love us the most, and they haven't done anything to us at all. We can't let the devil playground get the best of us. If you don't know what I am talking about, it is this earth we live on. Everyday we go through these world demons is hunting us down to steal our Happiness. I could start my day in a loving mood, but something or somebody does the unthinkable. It could be an aggressive driver, somebody in your work place, the neighbor’s dog, or the neighbor himself. All I am saying is don't let whatever happens to you outside in the world; effect what you done built inside the loving castle you done built with your family. I make sure I try to stay in my happy place, so my family can always feel the love coming from me. I know this is too deep for most, but it is the truth. Wake up!!!

Who is who?

Hey Everybody,

I call this "Who Is Who" cause of my friends.

I just got home from doing some time away. I thought everything was going to be the same as when I left. We all grew up together around the same neighbor hood, so everybody’s families know each other. I remember when we had nothing but fun. Now it is so much hating going on it is not funny. They are like a bunch of crabs pulling each other down from getting to the top. I didn't see it from the start cause I was at the bottom, so they felt like they had the edge over me. One day I decided to evaluate what I want out of life and I sure didn't want to be in the same position as when I left. These dudes was doing the same thing, like they was really doing something. I backed away thinking they could understand that I am trying to stay home this time around, but they only can see their selves. Where is the love? Are they really friends? How can a group of friends throw a whole life of friendship away like that? Now it seems like they hating on me cause I done positioned myself out here to be a positive role model. I stop hanging with them, because I can't expect different results by doing they same thing. I finally see that friends only friends when they can get something from you. Who is who when they wear their costume so good. They smile in your face like they is on your side, but they don't have your back when needed. I found out the hard way, and I don't want you to follow the same road...

Need To Be A Man...

I wanted to ask, (What happened to the real men?) I remember when I was growing up the man was the one breaking his back putting the bread & meat on the table for his wife & kids. The women really didn't have to work outside of the home. Women out there, I don't have a problem with you. You all had to do what needed to be done, and that's being strong while the man grew weak. How can a man call himself a man when the role has changed? It seems as though he is wearing the dress while his wife; girlfriend or friend is wearing the pants. I may not be able to match the figures as of now, but I will always be a man. Thank you men for taking the back seat, because a strong woman is to be cherished and not abused. The rest of you get your lazy body up off the couch and find a job to help that woman out. You will see how many rewards you get...LOL!!!

It Is All About You....

I feel the need to share my story.

One day I went in the barbershop across the street from my house to get my hair cut. As I was sitting in the chair a woman that caught my eye. I couldn't take my eyes off her. She didn't even know I was looking in her direction. She is a powerful woman who stands on her own, giving her family her all. I started doing my homework by asking my barber who this woman was. He told me, but he said I didn't stand a chance. One thing for sure never tells me I don't stand a chance, because I go after what I want.

Let me back up a little before I move on. I was already in a relationship. The relationship I was in didn't fulfill me at all. She was more into herself than me. I break my back by giving my last, and it went without notice. I ended up kissing tale instead of being loved like I needed. I had enough so I start opening my eyes to GODS most Beautiful Creation, and that is Woman.
The same day I decided enough is enough is when all this transpired. I don't blame myself at all, because it was the best decision of my life!

Well, back to the story at hand. After I finished talking to the barber. My son ended up coming to the barbershop looking for me. When he came in the shop. The Woman turned to him and called him over to her for a hug. I am sitting in the chair like my son knows this woman. He told me he wanted to go with her, but I told him you don't know what plans she has. I decided to go over an introduce myself, and get her number in the process. I left out while she was still getting her hair done. I still had homework to do. I went straight to my mom an asked her who this woman was. I asked my mom was she kin to me, but nothing besides friends to the family. Then I called my god sister to get her info, and she told me she is off limits. I told her she can't come in between this cause I want her. I got off the phone and sat on my front porch, waiting for her to come out to her car. The funny part about it is my son was waiting for her too but across the street. I knew she had to be special cause my son doesn't cling to anybody unless they're good people. As I saw her come out the door. I saw GODS beautiful Angel approaching her car. I called her name and she stopped in her tracks with a puzzled look on her face. She decided to come to me, and we started off with normal talk. I got to give you the short version, but the impact is the same. We ended up at the car wash, me, her &my son. The feeling that was rushing through me was so amazing I can't explain in words. I walked up on her and I could see vibes rushing through her. Yes, she was feeling the young man, but she backed up cause things was going along too fast, like we knew one another for a long time. They were cooking hamburgers & hot dogs on the grill. She asked me to share a burger with her, because she didn't want to eat a whole one. I wasn't even hungry, but I shared it. After all that, our connection grew that much more. I can't give you all of it cause it is our story. Guess what? We are about to get married. True love is out there, but you will never know unless you open your eyes and give yourself a chance. I named this blog "It Is All About You”, because that is the place I saw her at, and it is all about her!!!!! I might let her write something to my newfound joy, so look out...I am out for now. My Queen gets everything first cause she is my #1 Fan, Friend, Lover, Soulmate & my everything!!!

Women Still Need Love...

Women need love, but at times they become content with what they have as a man. When it comes to a woman. The world looks at her different when she changes men, but it is good for a man to change women. I find that to be full of stuff, because women need the right to find true love. You can't always find love overnight, you need the perfect match. When you see that the relationship is not healthy any more, change is a must. It is so easy to be fooled at the start, but over time the flaws will come into play. That is when you have to sit back and evaluate your situation. All I am saying is don't let time stand in the way of Happiness, because time can run out. You don't want to be one of those people who went through life without finding true love. I was blessed in finding it, and the connection is the truth. The only thing, you will wish that it came a long time ago.

Past Is The Past....

1. Hey World,

I had a crazy but adventures day today.I don't care what we do in life,our past is always there for us to relate back to.Why can't we forget about the things that causes us pain?Every time I walk in my parents house,all the memories I want to forget flashes before my eyes.I try to explain why I just don't be myself,but they don't understand cause they dealt with it in a totally different way.I want to let yawl know what I am talking about.My grandmother died in the room I was raised in,plus both of my brothers got killed at a young age while living there.The past will never be the past when it done changed your life around.When I step in my room I still can see myself tube feeding my grandmother on her bed.I sometimes stayed at home to help my mother to take care of her instead of being a kid.My joy was to make sure my grandmother was feeling good.I never knew how she felt cause she couldn't talk.I love her!Then,me & my two brothers was raised in the same room my grandmother died in.It wasn't hard at all cause we had one another,an our bond was like that.Yes,as we grew the started living the fats life,but they was only kids looking for love in the wrong places.They protected me from following in their footsteps,making sure I stayed in school & playing basketball.I decided to write about this cause I want to get this off my chest instead of bottling this up inside.It is not good to bottle things up cause you never know when the top fly off an you explode.Everybody needs to have something that they can vent to without causing harm to nobody.Let me tell you when my brothers died,an you can do the math.My oldest brother got killed July 15, 1992 & my middle brother got killed Dec. 17, 1994.I was born in 1976,and I am the little brother,so do the math.My life turned upside down after losing two brothers in a short period of time.The way we was born in this world,was the way I thought we was going to leave this world.My oldest & middle brother was born a year apart,then I was born two years after that.Those numbers scared me to death.I needed to live longer than a year,but the life I was living didn't call for it.I turned to the worst,because life didn't mean nothing to me.I wanted to let you know a little about myself,an where I came from.That is why I named my blog "Real Talk" cause I am not scared to put myself out there,plus I feel I can help somebody out there.I wish I was a scholar,then I will be on top,but I will be there one day.I do have a vision & goals,an that is the path I have chosen.Stay with me,because I am going somewhere!!!!!!!!

Everybody Nobodies & My Somebody

Hey World,

I want to start this blog off by saying Thank You to my one an only response to my first blog! You have encouraged me to right this piece. I only look to touch one-person heart with my words of wisdom. Today has been a long day for me, but that don't stop me from moving forward. I just wanted to tell you about my somebody. My somebody is the people you pass by everyday, either sleeping, eating out of trash or begging for money on the corner, even at the store near you. People look down on those people cause they are at their bottom. You is no better then them cause you is in a better position then them. I wish the world would stop being stuck on self. You never know when your world will be turned upside down and you will be in there position. Then how will you feel when somebody walk straight pass you not even giving you a second glance. You probably can't fathom that right now cause things are going good for you. I always try to put myself in their shoes, because I am no better then them. I don't have it to give, but I give what I can. One thing for sure, it all adds up. World, stop being so arrogant or showing off for your friends, because the heart is where it counts. A good heart will open up doors more than a stubborn one. I don't want to get too deep, so I am out for tonight. Holler at me if this touches you good or bad...

Life Only Comes Once...

Hey World,


Today I woke up and realized what a whole lot of people take from granted, just opening my eyes & breathing in a deep breath. Life is good if you focus on all the little things in life, not about having a house or car, but just living cause material things come and go. That is enough for today, so start today and focus on the small things.