I see that I am hard to find,so I decided to post something here.
As I went through today. I thought about how I had to grow up faster then the average kid. I was robbed out a whole lot of years. Please don't get me wrong,because I did the kid stuff,just moved to the older crowd too soon. See,my brothers was in the game at a young age. I saw so much that my young eyes shouldn't had. The funny thing about it all is that they wouldn't allow me to hang around them. I wore so many butt kickings for trying to be around them. They even used to throw me in bushes and dumpters if they caught me. Yeah,I used to spy on them,because they was my big brothers and; I love them. Once they got killed. I stepped up an filled their shoes. I knew it wasn't right,but I felt that the streets owed me for taking my brothers from me. I was lost to the streets for ten straight years,not caring about nothing. One day I was sitting in my jail cell thinking about my life. I started to cry cause I threw my whole dreams and goals away to the streets. I knew I had to make a change in my life or my mom was going to end up watching her last baby put to rest. I had to dig down deep to let the game go. I even think about it from time to time when I find myself in a finacial situation. It is hard coming from everything you want you can have,to a life of struggling. To tell you the truth,I love the struggle. I know I don't have to worry about looking over my shoulder for the coppers every minute. When the devil tries to come in my life. I think about my loving family, because they stayed beside me 100%. My so called friends didn't help me get through that time behind bars, but they was right there when those doors opened up. I had a trick for them cause I already knew they was going to act like nothing changed. It did though,because I changed. I want more out of life. They was in the same spot where I left them at. I told them that they should of pulled my time for me cause I wouldn't had been in the same spot. I just wanted to share something personal with you........